When I met Heather a few years back, I asked her what she was into and she said
“Electronic Music.” I asked her if she was into anything else, and she said
“no.”
Heather Mease is a composer whose works concerns the intersections of early and later music, media-specificity, and the history and practice of electronic music.
Shitty Music on Tape and I Loved You a Lot is the 2024 tape from
Semibegun, a multi-faceted project that includes the artist, a label, pamphlets and a radio series. This tape follows
Semibegun 1 (2021),
Stockhausen Serves the Worms (2023), and
NO ONE NOTHING EVER (2023).
At the thematic core of this record, it is an exploration of our emotional connection to the mechanical, the unreliable sonic nostalgia of mediums, and our pension to deposit our emotions into technology that is fading faster than ourselves. At times, this album sounds like your tape player is acting up, but the gremlin inside is Semibegun.
Rather than the ghost in the shell, this record is about the heart in the tape shell. The inner workings of the machine are a beating heart. The composition explores the liminal crossings of human and machine. Some of the emotional themes here concern joy, efficacy, what is necessary, qualities of relatedness, and being okay. It is the little mechanical taps that build your trust with who’s behind the machine.
On trust, Mease’s states that the themes of
Shitty Music on Tape “are explicitly about fidelity in myriad ways––in terms of relationship communication, infidelity, and the fidelity of media. It’s about the copy and the original, the limits of intelligibility, masking through noise, negative space and artifact becoming foreground. It is also about being trapped in cycles. We hear this in the use of imitation and canon (in terms of polyphony — connection to early music), delay, phasing, tape loops.”
Shitty Music on Tape and I Loved You a Lot pulls from a vast swath of sources. It uses the full frequency of the tape and a range of samples and instruments. This is the type of refined production you can always expect from a Semibegun release. I enjoyed this most with headphones, as the panning is really cool. Mease says the marked use of panning is related to the themes of cycles, in that it is about
“composing out (the) cycles.” If anything, this tape is valuable for its lessons in production, how to use the full range, which tape are better than people give them credit for (do note that the music is described as shitty, tapes themselves are not shitty).
The album’s trademark elements are distant voice(s), live and sampled voices, some sung others spoken, sounds of the past and present, all of which tend to recede back towards the past. Chipped sounds, clipping and tape echo, blocks of gentle feedback, blocks of warped medieval music. Evoking a floating feeling, floating away, away, away, away, echoing throughout. This distance is an intentional affect, Mease states that the
“distance is a result of the mediation- (the microphone being) a device itself, not just for voices.”
The track titles themselves echo these themes. What reads like classical terminology (possibly with jokes going over my head):
“Antiphony”,
“ripieno I” &
“ripieno II” (riparoni?), is combined with emotional, casual titles
“This Time, The Last Time,”
“But Have You Tried.”
Starting with
“Shame State.” There is an extended spoken word bit sampled across several tracks. A psychoanalysis lecture on shame and guilt. whose themes are trust and isolation. The dislocated nature of the voice results in an uncanny relationship between these taped therapy sessions and Mease’s own confessional voice. Mease’s voice is separately established early on and the counseling session sample seems to come from the collective conscious.
These blips of human voice are intermittent, creating a web of the artist’s voice, the listening ear among the archives, we are pulled by the ear through the archive, an archive that consists of the Semibegun world and institutional archives.
There is a marked influence of the influential youtube video
“1 hour of silence occasionally interrupted by Pikmin,” (currently at 3 million views).
Shitty Music on Tape and I Loved You a Lot is music for creative brainstorming. It is stimulating but you can never quite ignore it, or get completely comfortable. Even when
Shitty Music on Tape is comforting, it flits out to something entirely different, a quality that speaks to the compositional work here.
There are familiar tape artifacts, whipping sounds,
“wee-EEP,”
“WER-ip,” etc. An ever-shifting comment on our nostalgic connection to tape and various recording techniques.
Altogether, the lyrical features carve out a space for honesty, for the cited
“shame state,” I see this quality most marked in the stretch of three tracks:
“Shame State”
“Feeling Touched (in a way)” and
“Atlantic city on Christmas.”
The tape hiss never quite leaves, and never ever bothers the listener. Lovely tape hiss, tape hissssssssssssssssssssssss
Further to the composition, the structure breaks down in the second half.
I swore I heard a harpsichord in the second half, this reviewer doesn’t like harpsichord. On a re-listen, I was mistaken, there is no harpsichord. The instrumentation of this record is so varied that it is bound to illicit different reactions as to our preconceived notions towards different instruments, mediums, and vocal styles.
The must-listen track is
“Shitty Music on Tape.” The track is a bit buried being near the end of the record, but it carries the title for very good reason. If you only have time for one track, please make it this one.