I only search for what I know
I won’t find
Wash my hands
then drink the water
I used to watch my body
beneath tires
My meat wants so badly
to be warm
It burns
itself
I loved you for ten years
then stopped
I need you cruel
like shapewear
I need you
now
but you’re late
like money
I need you inside me
hard
and silent
like plastic
Like a deficit
I need you
to stop me
from living
I need you desperate
to keep me
alive
I’m not a liar
but I feel like one
Five vibrators under my bed,
three texts from you unread
I don’t use things up
before I throw them out
Blue mold on bread,
the bruises on my legs
One hole inside me
dead before you filled it
IG: @fmkrit